Personal Energy and the Matrix I´m talking here about a Personal Energy,- that everyone owns- the energy we are born with,- and what we use and accrete or even waste in our lifetime. This energy is determined by the energy we got from our parents in the moment of procreation. If we are "made" with love, passion and fire, we own relative good energy back up.If someone was procreated with violence, boredom, under drugs is good possible that the energy level in his life is low. Persons like this often walk through life with feeling like hangover, always tired, bored,- actually with a feeling that they do miss something. And indeed, they miss energy. Most of us (humans) do walk through life as results of bored fuck... For this is advisable to spare with energy, if possible to save it one or another way. Here are some exercises and thoughts about this topic: There are two things about saving energy. In order to save energy the best thing you can do is to find ways to move away from self-importance. You need to learn to be humble. To be humble means you don't lose the vision of your own shit. You can become an author or whatever, you can get lost in whatever you are doing, becoming self-importance, and then you lose track, you lose what you are looking for. The only way to be really be able to continue is to keep the vision of your own shit, because then you can stand in front of all of us and you are going to see that you are just the same as the person in front of you. You are not bigger than that, and this kind of awareness, being able to remember your own shit and feel relaxed about it, takes a lot of energy, instead of trying to play the big guy. To tell the truth also saves a lot of energy. To lie is more energy wasting. The world had to conform to its description; that is, the description reflects itself. We have learned to relate ourselves to our description of the world in terms of what sorcerers call habits or intentionality, that is, the property of human consciousness whereby an object is referred to, or is intended. Having to believe means that you accept the facts of something, consider all possibilities and possible outcomes, and then choose to believe in accordance with your innermost predilection. Believing is a cinch. Having to believe is something else. If you have to believe, you must use all of an event, account for all possibilities, and consider everything. Before deciding that you believe one way you must consider that it may well be another way.       * * *       A warrior, or any man for that matter, cannot possibly wish he were somewhere else; a warrior because he lives by challenge, an ordinary man because he doesn't know where his death is going to find him.       * * *       Death is the indispensable ingredient in having to believe. Without the awareness of death everything is ordinary, trivial. It is only because death is stalking us that the world is an unfathomable mystery. Without an awareness of the presence of our death there is no power, no mystery.       Having to believe that the world is mysterious and unfathomable is the expression of a warrior's innermost predilection. Without it he has nothing. The world is indeed full of frightening things and we are helpless creatures surrounded by forces that are inexplicable and unbending. The average man, in ignorance, believes that those forces can be explained or changed; he doesn't really know how to do that, but he expects that the actions of mankind will explain them or change them sooner or later. A sorcerer, on the other hand, does not think of explaining or changing them; instead, he learns to use such forces by redirecting himself and adapting to their direction. That's his trick. There is very little to sorcery once you find out its trick. A sorcerer, by opening himself to knowledge, falls prey to those forces and has only one means of balancing himself, his will ; thus he must feel and act like a warrior. I will repeat this once more: Only as a warrior can one survive the path of knowledge. What helps a sorcerer live a better life is the strength of being a warrior. The world is such-and-such or so-and-so only because we tell ourselves that that is the way it is. If we stop telling ourselves that the world is so-and-so, the world will stop being so-and-so. You must start slowly to undo the world.       Your problem is that you confuse the world with what people do. The things people do are the shields against the forces that surround us; what we do as people gives us comfort and makes us feel safe; what people do is rightfully very important, but only as a shield. We never learn that the things we do as people are only shields and we let them dominate and topple our lives. In fact I could say that for mankind, what people do is greater and more important than the world itself.       The world is all that is encased here; life, death, people, the allies, and everything else that surrounds us. The world is incomprehensible. We won't ever understand it; we won't ever unravel its secrets. Thus we must treat it as it is, a sheer mystery! Focus all your attention on listening to sounds and do your best to find the holes between the sounds. Stay in complete alertness.       Everything is meaningful for a sorcerer. The sounds have holes in them and so does everything around you. Ordinarily a man does not have the speed to catch the holes, and thus he goes through life without protection. The worms, the birds, the trees, all of them can tell us unimaginable things if only one could have the speed to grasp their message. It's not what you believe that's important.       It's how you perceive what you believe. Or is it the "Matrix"...? How do you define "real"? If you're talking about what you can feel, what you can smell, what you can taste and see, then "real" is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain…. Neo: This isn't real... Morpheus: What is "real"? How do you define "real"? If you're talking about what you can feel, what you can smell, what you can taste and see, then "real" is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain... What is the Matrix? Control. The Matrix is a computer-generated dream world, built to keep us under control... How Berkeley Sees Reality It is indeed an opinion strangely prevailing amongst men, that houses, mountains, rivers, and in a word all sensible objects have an existence natural or real, distinct from their being perceived by the understanding. But with how great an assurance and acquiescence soever this principle may be entertained in the world; yet whoever shall find in his heart to call it in question, may, if I mistake not, perceive it to involve a manifest contradiction. Berkeley “I imagine that right now, you’re feeling a bit like Alice tumbling down the rabbit hole.” Morpheus, The Matrix When the Matrix was first built, there was a man born inside who had the ability to change whatever he wanted, to remake the Matrix as he saw fit. It was he who freed the first of us, [who] taught us the truth: as long as the Matrix exists, the human race will never be free. After he died, the oracle prophesized his return, and that his coming would hail the destruction of the Matrix, end the war, bring freedom to our people. That is why there are those of us who have spent our entire lives searching the Matrix, looking for him. I did what I did because…I believe that search is over. “The Matrix is a computer-generated dreamworld built to keep us under control.” Morpheus, early in The Matrix In dreaming, you are not only out of control, you don’t even know it…I was completely duped again and again the minute my pons, my amygdala, my perihippocampal cortex, my anterior cingulate, my visual association and parietal opercular cortices were revved up and my dorsolateral prefrontal cortex was muffled. J. Allan Hobson, The Dream Drugstore, p.64 The Matrix is an exercise in ambivalence, and at the very heart of that ambivalence lies the Dream.